About Me

I write about my dreams because I remember them. Some are complete nonsense and barely memorable, but some are significantly vivid that it's mesmerizing. And because of that I'd like to share them with the world.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011


I think the majority of the people who would read my blog would have seen the movie Inception, and if not, you should because it's one of my favorite movies besides Shutter Island, August Rush, any "Pixar" movie, Push, 21, or really any of the Harry Potter movies, but I'm not here to advertise. (However, if you have not read Harry Potter or watched any of the movies. You better. There is no reasoning necessary. In fact, watch all of these movies but make sure to get an "okay" from your parents if you are under 18...just saying.) But anyway, Inception is about a guy (Leonardo Di Caprio) who lives in a world where they have the technology to go inside of other people's dreams and to create their own dreams thereby planting an idea inside somebody's head, thus, "Inception". Hopefully, our technology doesn't get that advanced because that would be down right creepy (but if you want creepy, watch Shutter Island...now that's really creepy), but it seems like our technology is getting so advanced that we are getting around the inception idea. However, we can, as of now, see people's dreams and even record them. The scientists' justification is: to help people remember their dreams. But I think they're crazy, psychotic, nosy people.  
I was very uneasy when I read this article because it almost seemed like an invasion of privacy. And I don't really have much to hide living a fairly simple life, but I thought it would be intriguing to share. Not only did the article talk about how psychiatrists in Germany have discovered a way to read "lucid" dreams but they mentioned how this was a "step up" from being able to read people's minds while they're awake. 
So let's get this straight, we already have the technology to read each other's minds? Maybe this isn't new to everyone but this is a breaking news to me. By doing MRI's and near-infrared spectroscopy, they could monitor heat patterns in the brain allowing to put together the images that people saw when they dreamed. Because the activity in the dreaming brain - with the hot and cold parts - were the same of an awake person, scientists can match the activities to understand what the dreamer is doing/seeing in the dream. 

Those in the University of California, Berkeley found a way to track the blood flow through the brain's visual cortex in order to recreate images in the mind. The article has a few examples of how the do this process. 
I really don't know what to think of this, whether it is an incredible advancement in technology or a just a messed up way that now gives us the opportunity to look into each others minds. If anybody has seen Inception, they know how that can be a problem. 
Here's just one video that is a couple of years old of how the Japanese were able to do this but a lower level. Now I wonder how much farther they have gotten in this project: 
I guess thinking about it is kind of cool but in a weird way. It wouldn't matter to me too much if my dreams were sketchily scanned by an unknown source, however I think I would notice going into a huge, white MRI tunnel, because well, I already share my dreams publicly. However I don't think the world would be as ecstatic. But who knows, maybe the people in the video are right and this will be a new form of communication. Maybe this will be the new Facebook. 
Yeah. But then again, as ifNobody tops Mark Zuckerburg. 
That's just life. 

(Oh and for some reason blogger decided to highlight my blog. Kinda special, but I don't know how to get rid of it so it will be a nice change.)

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Dreaming about Washing Machines. Yeah.

So a friend of mine had a curious dream about....washing machines. She asked me what it meant like I was some   dream guru or whatever so I told her I'll look it up. Here went nothing. Strangely after looking up washing machine dreams in Google and surpassing the "Get the Washing Machine of your Dreams!" I was able to find a list of sites that talked about this very ...interesting dream. In fact it came up with a list of "W"-word dreams. Ahem: washing bowl, washboard, washerwoman, washing, wasp, waste, wastebasket (where the site so nicely reminds us to look up garbage can), water balloon, water fountain. The list kind of continues forever.  But unlike the other dreams that I've mentioned in the blog that simply remind you that you have annoyance in your life, washing machine dreams "suggests that you need to resolve issues of the past in order to be able to make a clean, new start for yourself." So at least this kind of dream is somewhat...helpful. I told this to my friend who nodded, thought I was little crazy, and we carried on with life. So the moral of the story is, your dreams CAN be helpful, if you have them and if they're about washing machines. But that chance for that is just a LITTLE slim. But now that I have discovered the W list of dreams, I think I'm going to read about finding washboards in my dream so just when it happens, I'm prepared. :)

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Ahhh it's After Me!!!

I ran with my feet pounding hard away at the cement sprinting to the top that didn't exist. I was in one of those public parking garages that kind of spiral up and I was running away from "THE WALL", cue scary music now. There was a crowd behind me running away and unlike most garages it didn't have those open spaces on the sides where you can look out and see how far you are from the ground and maybe spit to test the distance. Yeah, no it was a spiraling black tunnel so basically nothing like my garage analogy. Anyway, as I was climbing higher and the crowd was moving forward behind me a wall kept closing in preventing from us having to go out. We had to keep running or the wall would just crash and crush us. So we kept running being chased by a solid CEMENT wall and the only hope that we got was that maybe, POSSIBLY, there was an opening at the top. If there was a top. 

So we all have the Chasing Dream. And for those who don't know what that is, that's a dream where you're being chased by something, someone, etc. Kind of self explanatory. These dreams are stemmed from anxiety  in your life and running away, like many dreams I've tried to explain, are because we are running away from the attacker or a problem. Sometimes the chaser represents someone or something in your life and sometimes it represents a character trait of yours. These traits: jealousy, anger, rage, etc are types of rejected characteristics of yourself.

Some people are in a different scenario where they are the ones chasing something. This can mean that you are ambitious and are looking to follow something or to get to something, perhaps a life dream of yours. Sometimes chasing in your dreams can mean that you need to catch up to something or that you're falling behind in society. That's sad.

When having chasing dreams it is very important to understand or uncover the closeness your pursuer is to you. If they are gaining on you, then this could mean that you cannot run away from your problems. If you are at a good distance this could mean that you have enough room to get away and that you're problems are fading away. That's a relief! If you're hiding from your attacker and he doesn't find you then you are in a good position with facing the problem, though it is not yet resolved.

So this is my advice that, of course, everyone wants to hear: when you're getting chased in your dream find a good bush, perhaps a comfortable bush that grows lots of good food and hide there for a while. Maybe your attacker won't find you and you're problems are almost solved! If you are found, then... good luck.

Friday, November 25, 2011

Whats that number again?

"Hi can I use you're telephone?" I asked and the man lazying around on his recliner turned to me and nodded without a word. Where was I? I seem to always get lost. I was in a gas station but much more like a car repair shop. I turned toward the dial. Okay. So it was 224-998-7373, that was the number of my mother who could probably find me and pick me up from this car repair shop/ gas station. I started dialing. 
Hmm.. nobody is picking up, maybe I dialed the wrong number. 
No. It's 7373! Let's try that again.
Wait no, its 7373!! Okay redial. 
NO ITS 7373!!!!!!!!!! AGH. 
There I wake up with the frustration of never knowing if I put in the last number right. Probably the most frustrating dream to deal with. I've tried to look into why this occurs but I couldn't get much of anything except that the fact that I cannot reach the person because I feel some distance between them. So, I guess that could be one possibility. But there really wasn't an answer anywhere about this so my own self interpretation would be: I'm crazy because I'm the only person who has these dreams, whomever I'm trying to reach is avoiding me, I subconsciously or maybe consciously don't really want to talk to this person, or, maybe I just have a terrible memory when it comes to dialing other people's phone numbers when I'm lost at a gas station. Or maybe all of these are correct. Who knows. I'll just try to remember to bring a phone book when the time comes.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Darn that Insomnia

Whenever I'm not dreaming or during flu season, sleeping, completely unconscious due to some sketchy, probably expired, cough syrup medication, I have these dreaded moments of insomnia. During these times I am usually sitting in bed staring at the ceiling  at the scratches of paint, or the word gullible I etched on when I was seven and sometimes just the blank, white surface. After counting up a billion sheep I turn over to the side and watch the numbers on my clock roll.
Then there are those crazy people who turn to me saying I should just take some sleeping pills and go on my merry way but i don't think it's smart to follow crazy people. So, I decided to research this annoying but yet phenomenal irritation that is insomnia. 

Insomnia is in fact very common and some of the reasons for it are easily preventable. It's not a disease, so for those who have it, don't worry but a habit that can be changed. Chronic insomnia should be taken care of and checked by a doctor of some sort. (a sleeping doctor?) to help with some of the symptoms that are causing the lack of sleep. But most of the time, insomnia is caused by stress or anxiety, physical health and the Starbucks frappuccino you had an hour before you went to bed. Personally the stress of school would be the cause of my insomnia and maybe the Starbucks but a simple switch in what you do before you fall asleep such as relaxing verses studying before sleeping or saving the coffee for the morning can cure the hours long wait of trying to fall asleep. 


Saturday, November 12, 2011

Looking at the Nightmare in the Eye

It was nighttime, the sky was pitch black and I was alone in the city. I had become lost and wandering for hours since I had no contact with anyone. 
Unexpectedly, a man was standing in front of me twirling his knife around his fingers just a couple yards away, and I of course I couldn’t fight him off after my tired muscles had been working all day. I began to run, but something pulled me back.
At that moment a girl walked up to me, she started to talk but I was deaf to her voice focusing on the stranger in front of me while walking backwards. When my mind slipped off the monster ahead of me, I heard her yell, “RUN!”
I ran for my life, around the corner of the block, to an old school building still standing though it had been abandoned for years. I pulled the girl into the building noticing a white light still on in a classroom. There were people there. There were ten children sitting in a circle clapping and playing childish hand games. I dashed into the classroom, locking the door shut, pulling down the blinds and turning off the lights I whispered to the teacher to quiet down her children. She nodded at me and that's when I noticed she didn't have a face. It was a blank head that stared at me, no eyes or mouth. The kids all turned around with the same blank pale faces pointing toward me.
The man outside the classroom shouted and screamed. He slammed on the door handle with whatever he had been holding and broke the lock. He ran into the room and brought his knife to my neck - 
I flipped my eyes open to see the darkness that my pillow had fallen on the ground due to my wild tossing, and the alarm clock blinked 2:00 a.m. I knew that it was all a dream though my nerves prevented me to going back to sleep. 


I think I had my first nightmare when I was seven years old. That being I may have had one when I was younger but I'm not very aware of really anything before the age of six. My first nightmare didn't have to do with anybody chasing after me, or anyone threatening my life, but it happened when my sister was devoured by a car. Yes, a car. But then again, I was six, so you have to understand that my creativity at that point only ranged from so far. The dream I just shared with you today was a dream I had when I was in seventh grade, and I know when I have these dreams because, nightmares stick to you. It's a moment of sudden shock where you're sweating and shaking in your bed and you're clinging to your blankets because you don't want to fall asleep back into that same dream. Or if you're like me, and you know who you are, you crawl into your older sister's bed because you know she'd protect you if anything happened. Well that is the intent, at least. 
Nightmares are dreams where your subconscious is telling you that basically you need to take care of something. It is usually the cause of a real life trauma or situation. This sounds familiar to the reason that we have those pest dreams that I wrote about earlier. However, this time in stead of it being an annoyance, usually a nightmare symbolizes you trying to escape a fear. Sure insects are fears but they are more nuisances, nightmares and homicidal mass murderers chasing you primarily, well should, fall under the category as fear. 
I spent the other day lounging around reading next to my cat who was sleeping peacefully on my lap. In a sudden second she flinched violently and woke up looking at me. Nightmare? I really have don't know what it was, but hey it can happen to anyone!


Now, my sister is off to college, so I've only got one solution. Face it myself. I don't get many nightmares anymore, maybe that's a sign of confidence which I doubt. A wonderful site explained how to escape nightmares besides lucidly dreaming, which is where you control your own dreams, but to confront the monster. I'm not sure how well this would work but maybe. However if you're like me, and don't have the nerve to turn to a horrific serial killer and saying "hey can you stop?", then just hope you'll wake up soon. Besides, maybe all that exhilaration is good for your cardiovascular system or something.  


Sunday, November 6, 2011

The Thing about Pests.

I was in a different house. I didn’t like the comfort of the bed and I was pretty sure there was something off about the room. I was sleeping, nonetheless, in the old sheets and the scratchy, cheap blanket that I was offered. Well, the only one I was offered. It felt strange, the room. Something about it made my skin crawl and I had a feeling I knew why. In almost an instant there came the stampede. Hundreds of thousands of mice, rats, and spiders started pouring out from every part of the room. They were spilling out of the unlit fireplace, pushing their way through the cracks under and behind the dresser, shifting out from under my bed, and worst of all, scattered out from under my covers.

Now, I know that many adults would say that I am lucky to have dreams, nonetheless remember them because they claim that they're incapable of creating an entirely different world beyond the one that they live in. But when my dreams are no longer letting me sit in a field full of candy or ice cream, the opportunity begins to be, a nuisance.
Whatever it is: spiders, rodents, beetles, bees, flies, ants; the sight of pests in our dreams will often make us 
shriek, cringe and possibly faint, if that’s possible. And as uncomfortable as the sight is, there is a reason for the torture that is tarantulas spiraling up your spine. Something or someone is causing you annoyance. A large quantity of pests engorging you can be an annoyance to which you are on the verge of going crazy. A large singular pest usually means that an annoyance is so complicated that in order to resolve it, there would have to be a sacrifice. And, all that screaming and hopping around just proves that you’re too afraid to face your problems!

Now, let me be the first to express that when I am sleeping I do not need to be reminded of my problems that I’m initially trying to escape by sleeping! So, next time you find a fly in your mouth, a slug in your eyebrow, or a black widow circling your navel, squash the darn thing and face your fears! No more annoyances for you and you can go back to the wonderful world of eating cotton candy and bathing in a tub of hot chocolate.
This is the basis of bug interpretation, for specific bug invasions check out this link! http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamthemes/bugs.htm (don't take these interpretations seriously as some or even most may be completely untrue, however it is an interesting way to see and compare!) 

Monday, October 3, 2011

Flying= Super cool.

I stepped to the edge of that one story balcony. I was about to do something completely stupid and risky. It was as if I were as crazy as those jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge, except in my own backyard, and about a thousand times less dangerous... I had my back turned toward the trees and my eyes shut tight. I didn’t know what I was so afraid of considering there just happened to be a trampoline right below me. Maybe the sudden hit to the bouncy surface may sting like a belly flop, but that really is the worst fate.
I peeked back down to the trampoline, hesitantly. I wasn’t the smartest person to think that I would land on such a small trampoline if I weren’t successful. So as if the trampoline read my mind, it grew in size. My anxious heart began to beat and I wrapped my arms around myself tipping backwards off the railing knowing that everything was going to be fine. Because, at that moment, I KNEW that I was dreaming. And at that moment, I began to fly.

Flying is that essence of freedom when you drift, weightlessly through the air, while the wind blows through your hair and you lay back with your hands behind your head because you know you’re pretty cool. Then as you begin to become a little more than a novice, you start to move your arms in the attempt to direct yourself to where you want to go. And it’s only because you are dreaming lucidly that you’re flying.

So I think I may have been a bit confusing and almost invading in some people’s personal comfort when I talk about flying in dreams. So those who are uncomfortable, don’t worry, it happens to a lot of people and it’s not something to feel self-conscious about. Your absolutely fine, illness wise. However half of the people who come across this post can relate to what I am talking about and half of the people are thinking I’ve gone bonkers. However, I have wikiHow on my side, so basically, I win.

Apparently, according to wikiHow, there is a specific method to flying in your dreams. Don’t ask me how they’ve figured it out, or if the authors who created the page are specialized dream flyers, but this is the essence of what I got out of the how-to guide I found.

What you need is a lucid dream, meaning a dream where you are aware that you’re dreaming. Some who have adopted this “culture” have claimed to be “specialized in lucidity”. Another one of the authors also wrote it crucial to have a quote: Dream Interpretation Manual. How do you obtain this? I’m not sure. But, I guess if somebody has it in the world, you must be able to get it somewhere. Maybe.

Step One: Think that you’re dreaming and understand that you are dreaming.
Step Two: Think of a story that involves flying. (This should be a fun and creative process!)
Step Three: Include posters in your environment that resemble flying objects, flying people, and all that jazz.
Step Four: Have fun flying!

Now wikiHow isn’t that mean, they don’t give steps without tips. That would just be insane like complicated cooking instructions, without the microwave option. So as I read these tips, it shows how to recognize you’re dreaming. Some ways are:
A.   By looking at the face of a clock multiple times, it will look different each time and numbers may be weird characters
B.    Also by looking at a mirror in a dream you will see your face very distorted
These are all the “simple” ways to know you’re dreaming, because, obviously mirrors and clocks always happen to be in every dream.

You know how in extremely dangerous and disastrous situations, a genius guy would always inform viewers not to try this at home? Well it is suggested that you do try flying in your dreams at home, just in case your dream confuses your body and you begin to walk around pretending to fly and jump off high sky scrapers. No big deal. I guess it would be better to fly at home than in the middle of history class where everyone can watch you fall off the teacher’s desk or zoom unconsciously around the room, just saying.

So there’s a brief tutorial of flying in your dreams, if you don’t get it the first time, don’t sweat it. There are “specialists” in lucid dreams who you can talk to and maybe get some lessons on how to fly in your dreams… 

Or you can just practice on your own. But if you’re like me, just let it come naturally, I usually like a surprise when I’m about to be eaten by a monster and suddenly I can fly away. It’s kind of nice.

Image: (http://www.wikihow.com/images/6/66/Flying-girl.jpg